Went to lot 1 just now for the intention to go shopping which makes me boiling mad.get this ALL THE SHOPS WERE CLOSE.fucking unfair i tell you.its like hello public holiday is also a working day?which shops that i applied says oh hari raya also you must work.nabey then chinese new year you guys close the shops.its really fucking unfair lah.grr.so the intention to shop was dropped and we just head home.im still pissed!and adding to that im sick because of the weather i guess.flu and gastric pains like urgg!andand i made a utterly BIG MISTAKE yesterday which made me regret my decision like really.maiii was mad at me to for saying that to him.i dont know

im unassure about my feelings but urrg!i shouldent have said that to him.

guess i hafta drop the idea which i had in mind.my gfs words made me think maybe it was true.if its really true im ready to open my heart again for HIM.but from yesterday i dont think that is gonna happen.by right we are super close together now.maiii was really mad until she threaten me with something.i need help do i?well maiii so what you think its best for me.i dont want another story of waiting for someone which i didnt get anything out of it.im not naming anyone.i guess i was totally depressed back then which make me think of stupid stuff.im sorry baby i really am.anyhoo i just asked luke how was the party which ive missed.nabey and guess what?the picture which makes me sad also bc i didnt go.haha.oh well july baby july!