Darling This Is My Story

2008-10-12T05:40:00.000-07:00

People always keep assuming things that are not real about me because
they dont know the REAL ME plus they are just those fuckers who arent
worth my time to be friends with.like i say they LOVE to assume things.
You see im the type of person if u really know me well that is i dont talk
or sometimes even see the people who i dont know when they hangout with
me.its not that im not friendly but its just ME.thats who i am.And i dont
deny my face dont look friendly but if you really know me and if you
take the initiative i can be very friendly.ask my cliques at work and you
will know what i mean.those fuckers just got nothing to do and just blabber it
out.ok wait what do you say?erm straightforward people arent hypocrite??
for god sake they are worst that hypocrites and you wanna know why??
cuz they are dumb people who cant see other people happy and more
greater than them.i hate her totally shes like a witch who lives at those
caves.busuk punya orang.IRRITATING PEST.hah!soon enough on this
holy month i hope they will get their retribution because this kind of
people deserve it.ok wait TAK PUASA TAPI NAK RAYA.Dumbos!

2008-10-11T07:16:00.000-07:00

Raya outing was fun today because i went out with the non muslims and
yes that santha kumama is just being herself that is irritating.gahh.well
not much pictures was taken as well we forget.haha.and im dead beat still
waiting if the rest wanna drop by my house.if not im off to sleep.some pictures
were taken.will update tomoro so goodnight!

2008-10-07T05:50:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th sister!finally you turned 20 but you dont act like your age.

haha.well nothing much to say expect for i love you and you know it

we fought alot of times but still you are my sister,have a great

birthday and go find a boyfriend soon!mwahh!!

2008-10-05T05:02:00.000-07:00

Will update pretty soon darlings:)

2008-09-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

My blog is getting dusty but ive been doing well this few days.NOT!!!
Im sick.urggg!!! and the flu is just killing me not to mention the dizzyness.
And so my week was fine.well i will try and recap what is happening.

Friday

I was on leave and i ask fara to go back at 5 so that she can accompany
me do my piercing maiii wanna come along so yeah we meet up at orchard and
break our fast at bbq chicken damn nice!haha.its at cineileisure btw.also i
thought that i want to do my piercing but the lady is not in and im lazy to
walk to fareast so i just drop the idea and went shopping instead bought for
myself a maxi dress which cost 49.90*faints*but its nice to me but not my
mama as she said it loooks like a night gown.thanks eh.bid goodbye to maii
around 930 and sorry i couldent be there for you.will meet u up soon.

Saturday

A date with my fatass as its been a long time since i last saw her.biaselah
orang tukan 24/7 with her bf mane wanna ingat me lage.hah!supposed to
meet at 6 but this girl came 1 hour later and as usual I WAITED.thanks eh.
Thats how i am no matter how long they make me wait i will wait because
i hate last minute plans that will cancel.so again we ate at bbq chicken its
my treat anyways she keep on apologising to me and making her stupid
faces.haha.after that again i thought i wanna pierce but when i think back
its not right because hari raya is nearing you see.so yeah.went shopping AGAIN.
bought a maxi dress AGAIN.haha.and a top from cotton on.home sweet home at 11.
early right i know-_-.

And as for today i didnt go work because of the flu and since fara is on leave
she accompany me to get presents for my collegue santha.Bought for her
a guess wallet which i will be getting soon.haha.2 scarf and 2 earing.shes lucky
lah on my birthday nobody contribute:(haha.but i still had fun with my gfs and
bfs.ok im going to take my med and off to bed.toodles!

Some random shots at work.

2008-09-15T05:14:00.000-07:00

"Feelings are many but words are few,

clouds are dark but the sky is blue,

Love is like a paper,

Life is like a glue."

2008-09-14T05:56:00.000-07:00

I have lost a bestfriend,
I have lost a gossip partner,
I have lost a shopping partner,
I have lost a weekend partner,
I have lost a listening ear,
I have lost someone whom i LOVE to disturb,
Basically i have lost alot.
Why am i feeling this way??Its because i DO treasure friendship.
But i dont think she does because of what??
She dont bother.I hate to feel this way but this is who i am.
I dont even have the mood to go to work.
I feel so lost its like i have lost everything.
Im told to be patience maybe i did all this out of anger.
But i believe i didnt.Someone wants to help,
but i believe if she really appreciate ME as her bestfriend
she WILL come back and make things right.
Because for me being angry with someone i care about
doesnt last forever.i forgive and i forget.its just a matter
of time that i will soon enough forget about all this and just move on
because i believe that im strong enough.
So all this is in YOUR hands.

2008-09-13T06:10:00.000-07:00

Theres a saying which says "Friends come and go" and "Nothing good last forever".
Well i agree to both.I sacrifice alot for people that i love and care about.some
appreciate it but others dont i lost alot of friends and today i lost a precious one
whom i am very close too.its my fault as i made the decision to do all this its because
i have limits to my patience and yes i can be rough at times i can scold at times or i might
be always cranky but i WILL find a way to say sorry or resolve all this shit things.

WE share secrets,hate,friends and even gossips.Basically i will make the first
move in everything like hanging out on every saturday. Well i never complain
because i understand her well enough BUT she doesnt understand me.
No more of this well its ok if i dont hangout on saturdays anymore i CAN live without
friends.This is the end and im setting it straight.im tired of crying,pleading and
especially GIVING IN TO EVERYTHING.and fyi im not accusing anyone or YOU
because im not in the place to do all that.im sorry all this happen.im sorry for everything.I
know deep inside i AM GOING TO MISS YOU SO MUCH.

Minus all this issues,family issues became a big problem too.Me an 18 year old
im acting like a 20 year old instead.The big sister in the house is acting like an 18 year
old.im working so hard to help support the family but she??did NOTHING.expect for
the fact that she sit and laz around at home.i paid for everything house,utility,internet
what happen to all the promises back than??im tired off all this things that is happening
im going to just keep quiet and do the best that i can.i think i must swop bodies with
my sister*roll eyes*

2008-09-10T06:03:00.000-07:00

Im gonna remove my taggboard soon as this irritating moron just irritate the hell out of me.call me a coward or whatsoever but NITA you just DISGUST ME.a fasting month is not a month to do this kinda thing.gahhh.irritating much like i say i cant be bothered with this kinda people.so SCREW YOU.

So long sucker!!

2008-09-02T06:00:00.001-07:00

2nd day of puasa is done.yeah i made it.haha.I dont understand why people wanna hate tagg i mean how stupid can they be.you dont know anything and yet you wanna interfere in people's matter.just because of what you got nothing to do??so i advice you to shut your trap up and do something useful and TO PASSERBY YOUR SO FUCKING ANNOYING LAH.GET LOST MORON.i dont thing this kind of people has life oh wait no life at all to just hate tagg around.really stupid.and only stupid people like you or people with no feelings wont get mad about other people spreading rumours your the bodoh one.bodoh.nevermind its the fasting month and this kind of people will get paid for it.ahhh WHATEVER.

Also Happy Fasting to all the muslims.its really a disgrace to see those old pakciks didnt fast and just freely eat at the canteen at work.no sense of respect.ceh!and and on top of that i just wanna wish this girlfriend of mine FARA A HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!Finally you can watch m18 movies.haha.and go get a bf soon ok!lol.love ya!

2008-08-27T05:27:00.000-07:00

I was so pissed off yesterday until i wanna blog but i cant.You see those 3 girls yes GIRLS cant see ME happy i mean they are so fucking annoying lah.Theres no rhyme or reason they stare at me just because of what i talk loudly or i talk to mr spongebob so that blackie is jealous??oh puhleessss you morons im not a kid so i dont want to pick up a fight or whatsoever.
Your three are so gonna get it from me just wait and see i will be the next one or easy said THE FIRST who will make your life miserable and get thrown out and cant work anymore.bloody fuckers.grr.i dont usually curse but they are getting on my nerves.

Oh partners wont be change anymore at work well i dont mind just as long as i dont partner with that what CHAMPION in split???puhleessss.if you do fast also for what,you will get a medal in the end or what??bodonye orang.ahhh whatever.at work rumors spread fast and i mean really fast the issues about me and HIM has yet to be resolve.i still need to know who the hell it started from.so this results to me getting a new job.urgently!!!!anyone??k bye.

2008-08-22T06:22:00.000-07:00

You see some people just cant seem to see the other people happy i mean like come on there is nothing wrong with her being close with someone else.jeeezz its her life.and YOU girl quit on playing the staring game or your gonna get it next time and im serious.seriously the drama at work will never end i mean like stop it already.gahh.ok enough about all this.

I woke up late just now and i rush off too work like nobody's business.haha.the cab fare is like freaking 20 over dollars and now im broke-_-.haha.thanks eh mum for not waking me up.watching a movie tomoro with maiiii well i hope so.haha.ok im dead beat and hungry ordered pizza but the delivery is late.nabey.

2008-08-15T06:21:00.000-07:00

Well the problem finally ended as i put my ego aside and gave in*roll eyes*.
Thanks to maiiiiiii she uploaded the pictures for me yesterday.I say thanks ready
uh so dont complain ok NUWUL.hahahaha.As for today nothing much happen at
work oh it was Hajar's last day at work so yeah good luck for the future aye!
Oh overdue pictures from last saturday.Enjoy=)

Overdue Pictures

Fishball cheeks! This fellow over here LOVES to crik pasal with me.hahaha

Sengaja tutup mata ok

kankan nampak!hahahaha.nabey.

why uh maiiii my face like that????

yah MISAI GIRLS.thanks eh maiii.hahahha
Fara macam model oii!!

2008-08-11T04:10:00.000-07:00

As cliche as it may sound i currently still miss that dear someone.
First things first the drama at work will NEVER end.i mean this is the worst place i have ever work.let me ask you something does beauty means everything??well for the fact that THEY are not that pretty to me pretty much a MINAHREP if you know what i mean plus they are the most 'mentel' girls i ever known.Oh hey Fara remember we are the trendsetter at work??haha.yes totally like they wear everything that we wore and its damn irritating,gahh!

This so called a FRIEND pretty much put them first in everything and its just irritating i mean come on i know they are 'pretty' but so what doesnt friendship come first in everything.hold up and think what did i do for your birthday yeah like you say they bought you a gift blabla but PUHLEESSSSS its the effort that counts.maybe your just not the type who appreciate things from a FRIEND.i couldent be bothered with you and the OVER SENSITIVE girl which i dont have any issues with and think too much over littest things.cant do this cant do that well what the heck i came here to work and not to make friends.People always say the more days you work at a particular place the more friends you make but my workplace is the opposite we made more enemies than friends.once again i couldent be bothered.blabla

I hafta save up money pretty soon as i intend to go to a tourism school next yeat hopefully but mum doesnt allow it as she knows that in the end i cant concentrate-_-yadayada im so gonna go back and study unlike SOMEONE who acts educated but is so isnt.k bye.

2008-08-08T05:52:00.000-07:00

Work=BIG FUCK!

Random i know*roll eyes*

2008-08-07T05:32:00.000-07:00

And yes soft rebonding is done!Well for me i look a lil hideous with my very short fringe as the lady keep cutting it.damn her!haha.I had my off day yesterday like finally.Woke up a lil early to accompany my mum to pay some bills and after that i did my hair.Well i did watch a movie called AWAKE staring Jessica alba and Hayden christensen 2 gorgeous people.and that movie is touching and sweet well abit disturbing and the end.haha.

2nd off day today and i went out with fara to accompany her to somewhere after that head to bugis as i thought wanna get some tops but nothing catches my eye.B-O-R-I-N-G.so than fara decided to watch a movie at causeway and we watch The Mummy 3.Scale 1-5???Well i will give it a 4.haha.because as usual no freaking ending.boohoo.Back to work again tomoro a whole lot of drama will start again.gahh.and i miss someone badly.shit!

Ps Baby im your future:)

How sweet and cute can he be.I will be on cloud 9 of someone sings this song for me.any takers??hahahahaha.goon.as if that is gonna happen:)

2008-08-05T05:58:00.000-07:00

Soft rebonding for me tomoro!Yeay!!!K bye

2008-08-04T06:44:00.000-07:00

I got jabbed!!!!haha.well the itchiness didnt go away so the doctor decided to give me a jab.and yeah its been a LONG time since i last got jabbed.haha.not painful but freaking cramp lah.and oh finally i got myself a gucci rush perfume.yessa..

Sian:Wangi niari.
Me:Slalunye tak wangi ke?
Sian:Tak

Nabey nye sian mcm tak pelat gitu cakap orang tsk wangi.haha.Ok me being random how i wish i was in the states right now i mean me living there.well not forever although i hope i will be but just the feel of it makes it all good.sometimes i hate it here.having friends who doesnt care sucks totally.i do have a few friends i can trust but some just irritate the hell out of me.i wanna get out from here and go as far as i can.i wanna live somewhere with mum and sis and start a new.living with the 2 of you only make me happy.so im gonna make that happen save up and do what i can.i just cannot stand being here with some idiotic people.gah!

Im craving for margarita pizza now.haha.im so gonna eat it on thursday if im going out with farah after she buy her medicine.oh yeah maiiiiiiiiiiiiii i love you!!!!!!!hahahah.im so jealous of this girl and her boyfriend.hahahha.ok bye

2008-07-31T07:30:00.000-07:00

Ive been sleeping quite late just to finish my so called big project.haha.its the least i can do for a friend.and just now i was so totally jealous seeing this couple together.hahahha.ok qiss stop it.anyhoo tomoro is the day that finally i can sleep early as i have finish everything.mummy is getting sick and tired of me nagging.i was also busy folding paper hearts at work that until i forget the time.

I miss that someone dearly and as i think back why can she get everything and not me???what is wrong with me???the thought kept running thru my head.im so impressed by her.maybe its just fate and i know soon it will be my turn.

Well that particular somone is being such a pain in the ass.all the minahreps are pretty in his eyes.oppsss i forgot your a matrep.hahahahah.bodo.ever since shes there HE will not talk to me.well im not jealous im just irritated.i cant be bothered also with his damn mood swings that irritate the hell out of me.i feel like slapping his face sometimes.ever since i said to him about his silly jokes he change.well i find it peaceful without HIM disturbing me.it will be better for me.so YOU better go layan your MINAHREP yang tk secantik mana and dont ever talk to me again.and yah im soooooooooooooooo pissed.k bye.

2008-07-29T06:52:00.000-07:00

Baby think what you have been missing and that is ME

2008-07-28T07:08:00.000-07:00

I believe in this world karma will happen i just have to stay strong and survive the obstacle.
Ive been thinking alot and i dont know why im having that particular thought.Sooner or later i know i will have what i want.

Ps Figure it out for yourself what this entry means:)

2008-07-25T05:33:00.000-07:00

IGNITE GIG TOMORO AND I CANT GOOOOOOOOO

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-21T05:43:00.000-07:00

I have so much to talk about as practically im on hiatus for a LONG time.ok so i will start out with my greatest birthday surprise ever!im so blessed to have such a wonderful friends around me and yeah i hafta work on my birthday but i did go back at 5 to go out with mummy and baby hafiz so on the next day i intend to go out with my gfs but than i get irritated and nearly went home.haha.thanks eh fara and dora.reached somerset and we go our seperate ways met maiiii and luke at heeren and than i told them that im not in the mood and i wanna go home.maiii nearly cried as she said at the point of time so than she convinced me to stay and watch the gig.met ferra at youth park and syg i miss u!haha.

So than they told me something that im gonna get blindfolded and i get the idea of course so we left youth park luke and maiiii hold my hand and like duhh they make alot of noise asking me to jump and stuff i sang to myself because i was afraid that i will trip and fall and than i heard people skating and damn i was at skate park-_-.haha.out of all places.when they reveal i dont expect the people to come i mean to know!you guys are so sweet!Thanks to MAIIIIII and FARA especially also to DORA,RUDY/NURSEBOY,IAN,HAFIZ,HAFIZ.God i had so much fun with you guys and yeah the pics to view:)

And as for today i had to cry alot my dear parmes has left the job and yes he is the sweetest data boy ever.he is like a big brother to me and that i had dream of and you will be missed mr parmes!god bless you in everything you do and MUST always remember me!hahaha

18th Birthday!

Me and Ian

Me and Hafiz

Me and Nurseboy

Me and Luke

Ok i dont know what i was doing.haha

FYI dora was wipping off chocolate from his face*ahem!*hahahaha

This 3 boys had made it happen plus luke of cuz

i love you baby girls!

sweet aye!

Farewell Parmes!

2008-06-23T06:14:00.000-07:00

Friday

Kinda went shopping with maiii to get myself an ipod like finally there was no delay this time and also a skate shoe for myself theres a few which have my size.walk around town for a while and we drop by heeren as maiii wanna survey for herself a bag and maiii was being irritating keep on talking about the flesh imp guy and yes i caught a glimpse of him again.ehhe.after that i was too tired to walk around so we head to fullerton's starbucks to also put in more songs in my ipod and just chilling around.home sweet home at 11.

Saturday

Hangout with maiii again but this time i didnt shop as i was broke:(haha.but i just got for janna a bdae gift and after that me and maiii plan to watch movie online as she bought her lappy along with her.we did for a while watch p.s i love you and than maiii knew that i was damn sleepy so she ask me to go home while later she met ian and the others.

Sunday

After work watch a movie at causeway with fara sayang just the 2 of us of course.haha.we wanna watch the happening but it start late so we ended up watching penelope instead and its worth my 10bucks.damn great movie.such a touching movie also.moral of the movie is that LOOKS DOESNT REALLY MATTER!hahahahaha.

So today work was tiring.i dont know whats wrong with me today that i did quite alot of mistakes.haha.i guess it was just too stressful.working everday!like urgg!but nevermind for the money i just hafta bare with it.

2008-06-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

Yes i am staying strong.thanks for all the sweet words my friends.i am still hoping though that he will come back by my side.im not in the mood to even go to work sometimes.im putting brave fronts infront of the people at work.sometimes i cant even concentrate yeah i do laugh and smile but i am a ROBOT.i just HOPE that one day he will stay by me like he used too.

Oh yes last saturday i have to wait for someone for 1 and a half freaking long hours!haha.and who is that its MAIIIIIII!!!!.i was sooo close to just leave her and go back home because i feel like fainting as i didnt ate the whole day and im tired of standing.something happen to me last time so i cant stand too much.but ended up i just wait for her as i knw she is rushing also.

My day at work was very superbly tiring i dont know why but my back hurts so much.i think its because of all the bending 2 more days before pay day and yes a part of me feel so excited:)
Oh yes talking about LOVE i think well i know im in love with someone.guess who??and well he is perfect wait a splendid candidate for the term BOYFRIEND and that is EDWARD CULLEN.haha.well he is a vampire of course but he wouldent hurt someone he love alot.he will protect her no matter what.and the most sweetest thing is that when he is putting BELLA SWAN to sleep he will sing for her a lullaby.how i wish my future bf will do that to me.hahaha.well i sure do hope so.i just cant wait for the movie.im gonna keep visiting the site for free movies for it:) another day at work again tomoro damn tiring.well i wanna take a nap.sugar dreams darlings!

2008-06-14T09:11:00.000-07:00

Its now 1213am june 15th which is a father's day.instead of happiness around me its coldness instead.i feel deeply sad inside for this year i dont have a dad to celebrate with.i feel like crying sometimes to see people getting super close with their father and i kept thinking about how he is everyday,with no call and messages cant get through his phone made me restless.i feel this way because well i USED to be daddy's little girl.he always pampered me.never fail to get for me what i want.never fail to irritate me,never fail to make me laugh and giggle,never fail to put a smile on my face.when im sick i used to remember he will get all so worked up and bought a drink for me so that my fever will cool down.

18years of memory with him is stuck in my head and it will NEVER fade away.although what he did to me and my family hurts so much but he is after all my DAD,although he is irresponsible at times i will still love him no matter what.i may scream and shout at him but he NEVER ever did he lay his hands on me.to me he is the greatest dad in the world when he is well not in a bad state.i miss his hugs and smile.i miss everything about him.for me typing this i cant control the tears that is flowing down.call me crybaby whatever you want but i am depressed and this hurts alot inside.i just miss him so much that i feel like i want to find the whole singapore for him.i just wanna make sure that he is fine.

Dear dad,
You may not know how am i but im not doing good without you by my side.
You used to be my other pillar of strength,
How much i used to hate you last time for causing misery in my life,
you know its all out of anger.
My life is incomplete without you.
If you happen to read this please comeback.
And yes your LITTLE GIRL needs you badly.
and that is ME.

2008-06-13T06:23:00.000-07:00

Im requiming the past where i knew someone special and it hurts alot when HE left me just like that.well not just like that but without a news or anything.he is the first one whom i love that much and the one that truely know my needs.its just nowadays that i kept thinking about him.haha.gong2 sia qiss.well i will get over it soon enought i HOPE.

Daddy has finally give me money.after so long and i cant wait for my pay day.im so gonna get an ipod touch.be jealous!LOL.so i cant shop like alot as the ipod touch cost me nearly 500+.ok wow.im having rashes all over my body and well it itch!!!haha.ohoh read this.

★ Mr AidiL ☆ says:
serious la
★ Mr AidiL ☆ says:
da da
★ Mr AidiL ☆ says:
go update
★ Mr AidiL ☆ says:
say hello to me at ur blog
★ Mr AidiL ☆ says:
haha

There u go mr dil.eh salah aidil.HELLO!!!!!!!!!!hahahahaha.oh crap you make me laugh on my own.now my mum thinks im crazy-_-.thanks eh.ok i wanna concentrate talking to ferra darling.sugar dreams darlings!

2008-06-08T07:18:00.000-07:00

Well the pictures you see above is from kinda characters from a book called TWILIGHT and there is a movie version to it and i already finish the book and it is damn intresting i tell you.its about a girl name bella swan who falls in love with a vampire edward cullen and the risk of staying forever in love is high and i know the movie is gonna be damn intresting like the book.7 cullens,Edward,alice,joseph,carlise,esme,emmet,rosalie.they are so called as the cold ones.ok i dont wanna say to much just watch the trailer or better buy the book!

Heres the trailer.I just cant wait to watch the movie lah.im on the 2nd series already going to the 3rd one and oh i wanna know the ending badly!haha.ok i wanna continue reading the book so those who loves to read.you will not waste your money on this one.trust me.

2008-06-02T05:51:00.001-07:00

My blog is getiing dusty i know.well ive been busy with work and its oh so tiring.alot had happen and yes the only chinese girl in spilt and the most bubbly one sook yee has quit.eh i miss seeing u around.haha.and santha is soo quiet without you now.do take care of urself and meet up soon!

Work today was ok.expect for the fact that someone love to irritate the hell out of me and well you know who.and fara darling bon voyage yeah!haha.she will be gne to KL and will only be back next week.and of course im gonna be lonely without her.haha.so yeah.and the irritation or whatsoever infection at my skin is so freaking painful lah.grr i cant wait to do to the doctor's tomoro.and yes besok gaji oi!!!k da.i wanna sleep im so dead beat.sugar dreams darlings.

2008-05-26T06:24:00.000-07:00

My saturday was fun as i get to hangout with fara sayang at last and maiii of course.so met maiii at cityhall as so we thought there is a performance but ended up there is no performance at all at suntec.bump into ros also.and then we sat at our usual spot.oh yes there is this SOMETHING that i really get fcuked up by someone like literally.and im super lazy to care about him anymore.it doesnt pay to be so concern.gahhh.and and i seldom talk to SOMEONE now.haha.cause i rarely see him at work now.so yeah.

Im starting to miss my dad and im wondering where is he now.i just couldent get through his phone and he doesnt give me money anymore,he doesnt come to see me anymore.sometimes i cry myself to sleep because it hurts so much that i cant even sleep.to think a DAD can make this kinda thing happen.seriusly a part of me hate him but a part of me loves him so much that when my parents get divorce i cried to sleep everynight until my eyes were swollen.please if only you could read this i miss you please come back:(

2008-05-24T08:22:00.000-07:00

http://sg.wholivesnearyou.com/viewtopic.php?t=21030&start=15

ALL THE MALAYS READ THIS.RACISM AND I JUST FEEL LIKE URRGGGGG!!!!!

2008-05-22T07:28:00.000-07:00

You hafta watch this movie when it comes out which i dont know when.well i hope it will be soon.if not i hafta find it somewhere at the internet lah.BUT me being so kanchiong bought the book first.haha.as they say its better to read the book more detailed right.and yes the movie is called TWILIGHT.damn romantic i tell you.haha.so yeah enjoy the trailer!

And yes a day out with ling fara was fun.thanks love!

2008-05-21T06:22:00.000-07:00

Im not in the mood to do anything.I dont even feel right.and im sorry to maiii that i take it out on you.i just feel like i wanna mia for a moment.i dont feel like talking to anyone now.i dont feel like going out anymore expect for to work.that is why i told maiii i cant spent my saturdays with her.i cant pretend to be ok wheres im not.i just dont know when could all this end.urgg!!the feeling of being pressured is sooo not good but im not the type of person who gives up easily.im trying my best to stay calm and do whats right for me.and yes im old enough to think about it.maiii im really ok dont worry about it.i guess i need some time alone.maybe not some but alot.and i know you wouldent be lonely anymore.well you know what i mean:)People always says learn from mistakes and not do it again.wheres people kept repeating it.hmmm.maybe i just think too much and not thinking straight.maybe just maybe.sorry darlings i am seriusly not happy.perhaps no one can ever cheer me up.and the way im feeling now??no one could ever understand.

Enough about being so emotional.i just hafta give up all that.it was my day off today so i slept like a pig-_-but i woke up early in the morning because im used to it already.mummy almost wake me up to work as she had forgotten about it.i think i need to do an extreme shopping tomoro so that i can release all this stress and soon enough well i hope i can change my work as this kinda workplace sucks.the people there is oh os irritating especially this damn girl who is the cause of all the problems.irritating bugger!

A video to share.I will be like her if i loss someone i love sooo much.and the pain!
watch and u will know what i mean:)

2008-05-15T06:29:00.000-07:00

FLU SUCKS!OK BYE

2008-05-14T05:20:00.000-07:00

Too young and too proud to understand i must say.Cant be bothered.cheh!
Work was fine was a lil bit boring as i was inside all the way.kak yana will be going
to thailand on friday so i will be partner with kak aminah,at 5 just now rose went back
and again i hafta go out to lane 4 which is also shafiq's lane.first thing he will and
always say is "eh kakak qiss".haha.nabey i feel so old lah.he kept on steping on my feet
lah.macam2.and and ok did i tell about a bus nearly ran over me??yes its nearly did.
shafiq said that he knock on the bus but i didnt even see it.haha

Oh yes i followed maiii last saturday as she thought that she wanted to meet well
someone and the friend uh hot banget!haha.i dont know why uh but i just fine him hot.
well for the fact that he is tall,flawless skin.goodlooking indeed.awwww!qiss gatal sia.
haha.NOT.i just find him cute thats all.and i will not be working on monday yo!yessa.
im super tired and the flu is like killing me.urggg!

2008-05-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

Yes an accident happen to me today.qiss nye selengeh i wanna cut the strap and i go and cut one of my fingers and yes it it deep mind you.haha.selengeh sia and all thanks to shafiq i cant concentrate on my work.haha.irritating banget dia.

People always kept disturbing me with J until well fara kinds spilled it all out.haha.thanks eh fara.well i kinda nevermind.and i cant wait for sunday which is also my pay day!haha.tak sabar sia seriusly.i wanna buy the flesh imp hoodie which is at heeren the cute boy is there.haha.okok im tired already i wanna sleep.sugar dreams darlings!

Dear ferra,
No matter what happen,
No matter what people say,
I will always be behind your back,
And yes i will always be there for you
My dear friend.

2008-05-12T05:41:00.000-07:00

Some girls are stupid and will not use their brains to think properly and thinking that people wouldent know about it.SOME also assume things that arent true.you yourself isnt that perfect and you still can curse people to get PREGNANT and call people NAMES LIKE KNNCB.and excuse me you are YOUNG and didnt respect someone who is OLDER than you and things happen it isnt her fault she doesnt even know her ex and so what if she know his background she knows how to think she knows how to be careful if you say that she is stupid you are more stupid because seriusly hunney it doesnt concern you at all.

Oh puhless i will be very happy to say to you this.DONT BE SUCH A KEPO.if she wanna get pregnant ke,if she is stupid ke its her life.between him and her ex its over.and he is starting a new.and damn you dont have to curse and call her names damn it.oh i forget you are only 16 still young doesnt think straight.if you dare to blog it go on and say it to her face.now i dare to blog about you i dare to say it infront of your face.oh wait you will say why am i the one who is like this wheres she didnt do anything??well because she is my best gf and i will do anything to help her.and YOU wanna act big and thought that we dont know you are talking about her??well think again lah faggie.this is the very first time that im pissed of with you.your so childish putting it at bulletins and blogs.asl taknak truk name sekali kan senang.eh let me warn you DONT EVER EVER BLOG ABOUT THEM OR WELL ME ESPECIALLY.your so gonna get it when i find out about it.gahhhh.ok qiss chilly milly.

2008-05-09T07:07:00.000-07:00

Overdue Pictures

Lifes been unfair to me.seriusly.i feel like dying already.haha.and the same old questions just irritate the hell out of me.
"Qiss when are you gonna have a bf"
"Havent time yet lah"
haha.simple.why rush into somethings that you think you are not ready.i mean rather than you break up with someone get your heartbroken i rather be single find the right one and just go as far as i can go with someone i love.i learn from experiences that my friends have been through and i dont wanna go there.the heartbreaks especially.like i tell everyone i know for myself when its the time.so dont keep asking me the same old questions over and over again.

Tomoro is saturday it means a day out of fun for me.haha.will be going to bugis to accompany the pretty ladies which is my collegues to shop for their stuffs.and at night maybe i will be meeting maiii i miss her lah.haha.padahal baru masa tu jumpe.so yeah and and to that dear someone i miss seeing you around k da bye.ohoh someone kept asking me for my number but i kept rejecting.fara darling you know i know:))sugar dreams darlings

2008-05-01T06:17:00.000-07:00

Such an asshole!haha.perangai macam nabey this kind of boys.

2008-04-29T05:49:00.000-07:00

Sunday's pictures

Entah ferra tengok ape.haha issyah shiok SENDIWI.hahahahhahR karat!

Work is well ok for me today expect for the fact that im irritated by someone.nevermind about that.love,life,dramas and memories thats what i am facing now.im reminiscing the past about someone who appreciate that much until the day i left singapore.it hurts me alot that he isnt telling me the truth.he is the only one i know who understands me that much and he is the one i know that wouldent get angry about the littest thing.in fact i miss him.i miss those times.i regreted going to hong kong i must say.he is perfect the one that ive been looking for.or maybe its not my time yet.we never fail to make each other laugh everynight when we hog on the phone.he never fails to entertain me during my lunch when i was working at mango.how i miss those times laughing at his stupid jokes. All this while im thinking what makes him change and what makes him to lie to me and didnt tell me the truth.im still holding on to the memory although its oh so long time ago because its just precious to me.i still remember the day where he wish me a happy birthday and i cant believe it at that time.but i hope and trying although that i say im holding on to the memories im trying to let go and not thinking about him,in a way i miss you that much.even if someone appreciate you and you thought that he is the one but you never know that maybe he is a nightmare to you and the worst you ever met.
Dear darling love, IM HOLDING ON TO YOU NOW

2008-04-27T09:45:00.000-07:00

I have been through alot of ups and down,family and friends and i hope sooner or later all of this misery will end.sometimes i just feel like erasing all my memories so i will not remember anything in particular that i dont want to.

Work is getting more and more irritating.my pay is getting lesser and lesser.and soon enough everybody working there including me i guess hafta pay income tax-_-pathetic much?and so one of the day where i dont need to do anything BUT all of the people from different department hafta find the missing device.

Boss:So you must be partner with a guy and a girl.i dont expect my girls to climb up the shelves.
Me:*faints*(looking arnd)
I was so stunned i tell you as i dont quite know all the boys there and so i saw suresh aka cyclop so i make my face thicker and said....
Me:Suresh want to partner with me not?
Him:oklah can.

And so both of us walk together.lol.and the first thing that he say is.
Him:eh eat morelah i canot see uh people more skinnier than me.
Me:-_-
What more to say?haha.people always ask me this kinda question which made me a little irritated.haha

So today i went to meet ferra,issyah and faruq at marina grab a bite and than head to clark quey to issyah's friend workplace which their name is reed and fir if im not wrong.they wanna jam so yeah me and ferra was like camwhoring and taking pictures as we got nothing to do.it was a fun day.so next stop ironman eh krg?haha.plus weemannn of course.hopefully i get my pay lah eh.
ok im really2 tired i need to sleep.sugar dreams darlings!

2008-04-24T06:11:00.000-07:00

I dont mean to pride or anything but some girls is just oh so irritating.wanna blend in to the scene makes me wanna puke.ewww.one main thing to ask.why do girls love skaters alot??-_-.i just find them irritating.haha.and music and typical poses and and the main big thing PHOTOGRAHY.well in the first place do you have the right camera.do you take alot of pictures that is so called photography???.selengeh sia.gahh.anyhoo work was ok just now expect for the fact that im so scared of the issue that im facing now at work.hopefully it will all go well.

Comeback kid gig tomoro baby!hahaha.eh excited nye.and ohoh im soooo gonna go to the click five concert this 5th june.canot miss it.a must to watch a must to see!ok giler.alot of work to be done tomoro makes me oh so mabuk.haha.well i think i hafta sleep if not canot wake up tomoro.sugar dreams darlings.

"The memories are shaking"

2008-04-22T06:59:00.000-07:00

My ipod turned gay and im so gonna go back to the shop this coming weekends if i dont get a refund im going to be so madddd that i wanna make a complain.haha.i should have buy my nike sneakers instead!gahhh.but thanks to my ling for accompany me to walk all around simlim and tomoro im gonna be alone again in the split room as kak eton got herself an emergency leave for dont know what reason-_-i sooo hope someone is not around that i have to be outside for the whole day.shiok giler oi!haha.

"Tonight i fall and i cant get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And everynight i miss you"

Baby i miss you

2008-04-21T06:35:00.000-07:00

Somehow im trying not to think what i have been through.all the drama's in my life.i wish i could turn back the time and bring them together.im hurt deep inside and i wish they knew how i am feeling.they dont consider my feeling.how much i love them and need them.and i know seperated at an old age is such and embaressement.they themselves know it.

Dear mum,
If you could only feel what i feel.if you could only see what i see.
If you could only know what i know.how i wish you could understand me.
I cried myself to sleep thinking that its all over.

Dear dad,
If only you could change what you are thinking,
If only you could change your mindset.
If only you could fill up the empty space in my life.

And yes im torn into pieces.i cant deny.i miss seeing both of you together.i miss seeing both of you smiling and laughing together.gosh how i miss those days.I love you now tomoro and forever.Forever i will be your daughter and forever you will be loved.

And dear gfs im ok thanks for the concern i just need sometime alone to clear my head out.work is stressing me out even more.and i just wanna take a break.i wish i have a boyfriend.ok random.

2008-04-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

This week's pay is a bomb alright but its getting lesser and lesser as i hafta pay this and that.sometimes i just dont understand my mum i feel like being taken advantage by her.hmm..anyways i end work early just now.i dont know what is wrong with my boss.haha.easier he can just let us go at 5 but he say all of us MUST go back at 6-_- pathetic its just 1 hour away.i think he is really rich lah that is why.so i call maiiii up and she said that she can make it but ended up i have to wait for her for 2 freaking long hours until i decided to take the cab home and there i saw her inside the cab calling me and so she is shot of cash.hahaha.manyak cute lah lu.so yeah i plan to go shopping was being called off.hahahha.all because of???????MAIIII'S COMPANY!!!!!LOL.until my back pain everywhere pain.haha.So when i was in the train home there is this china man apek who sat beside me and suddenly he sat facing me i mean like he turn his body and his leg is closer to mine.nabey i was damn irritated and disgusted as he is so smelly until i get up from the seat and just stand.god some people are super disgusting.and and yes when we plan to eat at mac those typical singaporeans who have finish their food and some were just eating ice cream couldent care less and for other people.my god really i was soooooo irritated!!!but there is some part which well disgustin to girls shiok for boys uh one drag lady her boobs are showing.hahahahahahahhahahahaha.suke?????mampos sia such a disgrace to all the ladies and women.my god and she doesnt realise it until i think her friends said to her.hahahha.entertainment for the day,so the horny boys you can imagine lah eh.hahahahah.work tomoro!!!!!!damn tiring.k bye.

2008-04-16T06:31:00.000-07:00

Remember the first time when we met,
You didnt realise i look in your eyes,
The feeling's different its not like always,
Ive always been there when you needed me,
I came by to sit and talk to you,
Can i sit by your side.

Do you feel like i do?
Have you found someone new?
You didnt realise did you?
Just telling you i miss you.

Time is moving like a train,
You didnt realise we're getting apart,
The feeling's different its not like how
it use to be.

Ive always been there when you needed me,
I came by to sit and talk to you,
Can i sit there once again?

Do you feel like i do?
have you found someone new?
You didnt realise did you?
Just telling you i miss you.

2008-04-14T08:58:00.000-07:00

Work was VERY boring today as there is nothing to do.all we did was to make the box box and more boxes.haha.sook yee went home at 5 so i hafta send the balance with kak eton.after work went to nazir's house to so called celebrate his birthday and matrep shafiq was there.everytime he see me he will keep picking on me damn irritating and when the time i wanna go back shasha said this.

Shasha:(pointing at me)Ni shafiq punya!hahahahah

Siaknye shasha i think my face turned red as im so paiseh!haha.but yeah after that they wont disturb me anymore as he is not working there.along they way shasha's husband open hindi song at his lorry.haha.it was kinda funlah.oh yes i talk to my hunney mai for a while on the phone just now about her first day of school.seeing those ite people going to school make me regret not appealing for higher nitec.but regretting now isnt a good thing as i cant turn back time for sure.ok im super dead beat.its time for me to sleeppppppppp.goodnite babies!

2008-04-09T06:37:00.000-07:00

Work work work that is the only thing that is happening to my life.haha.no more free outside life.that is only on saturday's.haha.of course im always with maiiii baby.im so dead beat.work today was a-ok expect for the fact that there is alot of shipment which made my back really painful as i hafta stand the whole day.gahhh.and for tomoro my partner is not coming so there is a reason for me to be late!heeh.and and comeback kid is coming to singapore!!!!suke???suke giler!hahahaha.

Im trying not to think of the situation im in now this is just a message for you.if only you could read this.

Dear dad,
No matter what happen you know i will always love you.although things werent the same like before and you werent the same person anymore you are still my dad and forever you will be.i cry day and night thinking that i lost everything when the day you are not with mum anymore. and till now i couldent stop thinking about it.i wish i could turn back time and make you realise what you have done.i love for now tomoro and forever.you are my heart and you are my soul.

Current Favourite song yo!

2008-04-08T06:19:00.000-07:00

Today and Wednesday's Pictures

Fara baby

Ive been on hiatus for oh so long.yes i know.haha.alot have been going on and work made me oh so tiring that i cant even on the tv.balik tidur.camne nk online.haha.now im working for 12 hours.how great??NOT!although the pay can be a bom but uh its oh so tiring.since im on hiatus many things happen to me.at work mostly.the decision i regret taking and giving but yeah a lesson to be learn.im trying not to trust a person that much as i know people come and go.maybe im taking it to seriusly maybe i trust them too much that they take advantage of me.im trying not to think about it-_-.

My saturday was awesome.i spent my day with maiiiii baby!haha.as usual well i wanna get myself an ipod but i couldent find it.so maiiii baby suggest that i get it on my next pay so i get myself a new addidas shoe yo!haha.cantik giler dong.thanks to baby lah eh.hahaha.and and she is jealous!lol my new shoe cantik giler.kan maiiii kan??haha.so yes next pay im so gonna get my ipod.tralalalala ok i dont know what more to update.a boring post yes.and pssst I GOT BANGS NOW=)

Dear someone,

I may appear to be rough i may appear not to care.i have mood swings here and there but i do care for you.i may shout i may scold but its all about concern,if i dont care for you i wouldent have done that.youve change alot and it made me think.are you really a true friend??think back what i have done for you.if not for the good ones think of the bad ones.at least remember i have ALWAYS been there for you.and now it is YOUR turn

2008-03-21T06:25:00.000-07:00

You can only push a girl away for so long until she walks out of your life on her own.
So be careful and make sure this is what you want because once she turns around she isn't coming back.

-Extracted from someone.

No matter how you are, No matter who you are, Be good to someone you love.Be truthful to someone you love.Appreciate them.Be kind to them.Say and believe what is in your heart and not your mind because the heart never lies.Believe in them and everything is gonna be alright.

-extracted from ME

YOU honey took me for granted not appreciating me and not thinking straight makes me realise you are just using me.its hard to believe you now.i may appear normal to you but im not.deep inside theres a hate.a hate that will never go away.believe me im truthful to you.my feelings and my words.but honey its not gonna be the same.its not gonna be like before.because i have change my perception towards you.by the time you think what is right for you.im gone.long gone away from you

2008-03-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

Today and Wednesday's Pictures

Last Saturday's Pictures

Work is hell for me.lots of drama at work makes me wanna puke seeing the so called "couple's face"-_-.fara u know i know eh.haha.but shopping was fun when u have the MONEY in ur hand.hahaha.yes maiii and mai i shop like theres no tomoro.and im gonna shop again this saturday.haha.pictures from last saturday will be uploaded later.i miss my outside life alot.the long hours of hangouts.now maiii baby and me hangout lesser time as i always end work at 5.lucky for me theres no work tomoro!nyahaha.part tu best giler.leh tidur lame2.NOT!fara says she wanna watch movie with me.shes my date.haha.everyday date.we are known as the twins at work.haha.as they say we look alike and our wearing.haha.funny.

Take This Time And Realise What You Have Been Missing,And That Is ME

2008-03-18T08:25:00.000-07:00

Ive been on a hiatus long enough.haha.been super busy with work and sleeping when i got home make me miss all my online friends and even my mummy i miss talking to her late night like i used too.and now i cant because when i get home i will sleep-_-.damn tired i tell u.and my saturday's cant end late anymore i miss going back at 11.hahahah.k lame.

Saturday:
Spend my day with maiiiii as usual.haha.i must be with her on saturday.ceycey.lain macam jek!yalah maiiii my baby M what.nyahaha.maiii u knw i knw eh.so yeah met her up at yishun dont ask why and than head to town to survey for my skate shoe.but all the sizes are too big for me.ni lah orang kaki kecik kan-_-.luckily theres one at marina.after that had our so called late dinner at macdonald and than head to raffles.ok i miss that place.haha.sit at our usual spot chit chat and camwhoring session!haha.i was the model for the day!cool or what.pictures will be posted pretty soon.home sweet home at around 11.

Tuesday:
First pay first pay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahah.800++.more will be on my second pay i hope.now its getting lesser and lesser-_-.change hp,buy skirt,give mummy.now im left with 300++.that fast the money is gone.haha.i still wanna buy alot of stuff.but the important thing is bro luke's belated birthday present which i had promised him and my skate shoe.ok da qiss da happy.haha.NOT.3rd of april encounting.lucky for me friday is an off day.im gonna sleep the whole day and will only wake up to bath and eat.haha.k da.

YOU build me up and tear me apart again.
Much more worst than i use to encounter.
YOU make me tear all over again.
Much more worst than i use to encounter.
One question.
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME???
Please dont bother.Get the message that i have
sent to YOU inside YOUR head,
No more lovey dovey.
Its over and dont with get it?????

Over and over again it will be about you.arent you sick and tired of it??well i am.I AM.i dont know why you are the one that kept pulling me back.you are the one that just.arggg!im confused,im mad.mixed emotions!be a man honey and just say what do you want for yourself.that is what it all matter.

2008-03-12T06:41:00.000-07:00

The sundal has thought a lesson just now!padan muke kau bodo.he thinks that im the kind who he can mess around with and i wont do anything.eh boy lu relek satu corner sudah.hahaha.kan qiss da jdi mcm MN.thanks to fara's mama who thought him a lesson.mulut kalah perempuan betol2 mcm cibai!go change ur gender lah.dalah duda!nak step handsome jek.my IP BOY like cute!hahahahahaha.fara u knw i knw.i cant stop looking at him you know.he is so cute too resist!LOL.sialan.kejer bukan nak tgk lelaki!heeh

Forget about everything the feelings the outings.its just a matter of time we became the way we are now.its fate and we cant change it.i decided to move on with my life.forget about everything even about you.i dont wanna hold back anything,i dont wanna be in love with you again.i had enough of you toying with my feelings.let go let everything go.i dont want this anymore.you are the first and you are gonna be the last.maybe all this shouldent have happen.maybe we werent suppose to even know each other.all this happen for a reason.a lesson to be thought and learn.im not like all those typical girls.im way different from them.im angry im mad im dissapointed.never ever i had this kind of feelings before.your just way different which made me fall for you back than.now we have move on at least i know i am.but for you??i know you are.boys cant be trusted well majority of them that is.true faithful boys wont talk to other girls even when you are in a stage of getting to know her.well no need of explanation.all i know is i had enough.please let it all go.

2008-03-10T05:52:00.000-07:00

I was following poven just now as i was super bored so we went to send back the balance when this matrep bodo said "tak lawa tak lawa"tak lawa nenek kau bodo!i was fucking pissed with him very random so what if im not pretty??at least im not cheap and not a minahrep.unlike u uh dalah matrep burok nak step berg jek.i think poven more cuter than u nabey betol.oh yes!i didnt mention that there is this super duper cute indian boy which is not a typical indian boy mind you.hes like my kinda boy the hair the style.like WOW!haha.kk qiss sikit2 jek.im super tired and fara planned to take 2 days off which i am going to also for shopping!haha.and of course resting and sleeping the whole day.confirm shiok nye.im super super sleepy and i guess i wanna take a nap ok not guess but i want to.well sugar dreams darlings

2008-03-09T08:42:00.000-07:00

I want my voice back!ok bye

2008-03-08T07:42:00.000-08:00

I cant believe that i actuallly like someone like THAT in the first place.like literally that.u see sometimes u thought that someone is the one for u is actually not at all and u thought that he is perfect but he is actually not at all.thinking back i feel so super stupid dont know why but i do.u make me fall for u but ur not there to pick me up when im torn.all u can say is just SORRY.and sorry just doesnt mean everything right now im still hurt although i said to everyone that im over it and happy cuz he is the first who made me fucking sick and not happy!but now when i think back he is soooo not worth the wait.how stupid can i be i lost him and i gain baby.baby is not perfect in a way but he is still the best.he knows how to make me smile evern when im super sick and cant even get up.he knows just the way to please me.and he knows how to make me laugh and that is my weakness.manjaness so irresisteble oi!haha.

Mummy is not at home yet and im alone:(all alone and i cant sleep.i dont know why.luckily tomoro is until 5 if not i think i will faint.haha.seriusly im super tired and sleepy.god.and and i bought for myself a skirt,dress and a slipper for work.haha.im out of baju already.i guess i just wanna work for like 2 months??to buy what i want and than leave and find a new job.i cant take it!haha.i dont know how fara stands it.i mean like u must work everyday and u can only take leave after 3 months and tu pun tk confirm dpt.nabey betol.haha.im still sick and still got no voice i have to go to sleep.sugar dreams darlings.

2008-03-05T06:58:00.000-08:00

When will all this misery is gonna end!geram!geram!haha.i still cant get my voice back lah.nabey betol.embaressing you know talking to people with your voice literally like that.haha.grr.anyhoo 3rd day of work was still ok but if i have my voice back it will be much more fun i tell you.confirm nye i talk alot.haha.until i irritate fara well that is what i have been doing now also.until she JELING me and give me that IRRITATED LOOK.u think i canot see isit??haha.im not blind lah dey and also thanks to fara's granny that i had a good breakfast.nyahaha.im dead beat my back hurts alot i guess i need to sleep ok not guess but wants to go to sleep.oh oh one more thing POP PRINCE PIERCE HIS EYEBROW READY!hahaha.da jadi mcm bill kepe!i sooo must see how it looks on you.k bye.

Everynight i miss you i can just look up and all the stars are holding,holding you tonight

2008-03-04T08:02:00.000-08:00

i miss dancing with these baby's ALOT

really OLD PICTURE.but i like it in a way.sorry eh fikah.haha
i did this hairdo before anyone does:)

kemaruk shades.rambut pendek!
the badest dance performance ever.haha

i miss school too!:(

long hair long hair.candid baik!
sec school friends.ferst outside school performance.gerek oi!haha

First day of work was such a drag for me.i cant even sleep at all because of the cough especially that got me really irritated.i lost my sweet and innocent voice(perasan nak mampos sia qiss)nyahaha.well what do i care!i was of course SLOW.haha.and the place is so damn freaking cold lah.thanks to auntie zaiton that i THINK i know what im doing.i ALWAYS forget the smallest detail of the work.2nd day which is today was ok too.well seriusly i hope fara doesnt take MC or whatsoever.haha.lunch no friend!because i dont wanna make friends there as well i KNOW how they are now.haha.well another LONG day ahead tomoro.ohoh i was clearing up my photobucket when i saw truckloads of my old pictures and i mean really OLD.haha.

First day of work!

Fara:Qiss!buat TYPICAL pose cepat!hahahaha-_-

2008-03-02T06:12:00.000-08:00

Paranoid park!A must watch film if it comes out in spore that is.

True love is hard to find but if you put your heart and soul into it you will realise how much more easy is it.

2008-03-01T08:26:00.000-08:00

Guess what??what??what what??haha.kk da.I LOST MY VOICE-_-not literally i can talk still but not alot because when i talk it will hurt even more and qiss canot take it!haha.grr.aniways the gfs outing just now was fun of course.i was late because last minute i decided to go home and change.haha.so met maiii and emika at somerset and head to well LJS of course for my so called late lunch as emika and maii had already eaten and after that head to this hiphop tinggy no offence but i hate it ALOT.haha.seriusly i dont know if they are rapping or just mumbling so we decided to head to marina and just walk around for a while and then head to esplanade as plain sunset is performing but we reach there a lil early so we just hang around and i took a couple of their candid pictures and believe it or not i wasnt in any of it.haha.ok maybe one.and then this 2 boys were standing super close to me when plain sunset is performing.haha.boleh tahan cute uh.LOL.qiss*shake head*.haha.home sweet home at 12.gosh i think im really gonna lose my voice.shitzo.grr.

2008-02-28T07:15:00.000-08:00

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

2008-02-27T06:37:00.000-08:00

Current mood and feeling??Lethargic,sick,bad headache and i mean like really bad.i dont know why im like sick suddenly and maybe its just because of yesterday.yeah only maiiii baby knows.dont ask me what,dont ask me when all i can say its ALL OVER.ive had enough of misery and crying and its all because of YOU.sometimes i just want to give you a slap on the face so that you can wake up.gahh.ok enough about HIM.mummy wants me to go to the doctor but i refuse because i dont wanna waste her money.its just the headache that is killing me.anyhoo like finally all the problems that i face with my house is all over.dad agree and mum agree.god i wish i can see them back together again.both are very ego and it will never end-_-now im sick and i dont know how it will feel when im working almost everyday.haha.well i really think i should sleep.gahh.sugar dreams darlings.

2008-02-26T06:41:00.000-08:00

It has been so long since the day that we last met
Moment i lay my eyes on you
I thought that i can make it
through this painful life
Our hopes that has reach to a mountain high
But i never knew that your just someone in disguise
All my efforts to win your heart
Has gone down the drain and torn mine apart

I thought that you were the one for me
The only one who makes me breath
Always the one who makes me laugh
whenever i am feeling down
I cant believe i was so blind
I thought that i could make you mine
But in the end you walk away and turn my life to cloudy day

You showed me a sign you showed me your love
That i almost thought that your send from god above
At first you gave me so much hope
But than you gave me so much pain
Why the hell you were so cruel
You treated me like a fool
Your intention wouldent clear
My heart is burning like fire
I just want you to be scared
Cuz i know that you're a liar

I thought that you were the one for me
The only one who makes me breath
Always the one who makes me laugh
whenever i am feeling down
I cant believe i was so blind
I thought that i could make you mine
But in the end you walk away and turn my life to cloudy day

What wrong have i done or are you
Seeing someone i thought that
Your the one but until now nothing has begun
What wrong have i done or are you
Seeing someone i thought that
Your the one but until now nothing has begun

A song extracted from one of my friend's band.This is how i feel now.I just wanna say i miss the old you.

2008-02-25T00:26:00.000-08:00

If only all boys is like HIM in this music video wouldent it be super great.keeping his eyes on only ONE girl.not paying attention to any other hot girls around.well boys like this is very rare.very indeed:)

2008-02-24T08:28:00.000-08:00

Sunday's Pictures

Saturday's Picture

I keep on babbling about someone that i shouldent be.and believe it or not the feeling is now HATE and not LIKE.gosh and its getting more and more.seriusly i hate it when a MAN is not MAN enough to tell me everything.how am i suppose to face u??i cant even talk to you or look you directly in the eye and you know it too.and you dont even bother to ask me??god i wish im really not in this situation.i HATE IT ALOT.and every now and than i feel like crying.and crying doesnt mean i am WEAK it is just how i express my feeling.seriusly i thought you are wayy different from those idiotic boys but i guess you are just the same??i know im not suppose to say all this but this is the only way i only know how to express my feelings towards you.IF ONLY YOU CARE HOW I FEEL TOWARD YOU.that will be much better.much more better.and me WAITING but i dont even see you TRYING.well why didnt you give up in the first place??god quit playing around with my feelings:((((((i cant take it anymore.and im not DENYING all this.ive told you everything but you didnt!!!!shit shit shit!tears started to flow upon me writing all this.please honey make it all stop can you???

2008-02-23T08:24:00.000-08:00

I wanna take this opputurnity to wish my hunney ferra a happy birthday.May all you wishes come true and and love you many many!You have been a great help towards me to you know what and i appreciate every moment of it.stay sweet hunney!

Update:

Girlfriends are the best they will not make me upset and will try their best to cheer me up and have fun with me even though i could be quiet and irritating at times!haha.mostly irritating uh especially to maiiii.hahaha.you know i know.anyhoo the usual saturday kakis was with maiii and dinah.met dinah up first as maiiii was late(as usual)qiss siak!hahaha.dinah bought for herself pumps which is super duper nice and i should get it one day.hehe.later in the afternoon met maiii at heeren as she wanna check out some stuff and then off to raffles as usual.girls talk is always fun!and of course camwhoring session.and when i was in the train back home with dinah there are this idiotic boys who make some remarks to dinah which made me boiling mad.nabey betol.and and there is this super hot and cute indie boy standing infront of me*blush*hahaha gila sia qiss.

Although i appear to be HAPPY at all times but in my heart??only god knows what im going through.MAYBE just MAYBE this is how it meant to be.im not strong enough for all this but for a matter of fact i am weak in this kind of situation.Honey mai told me something that i find it VERY useful.im holding on to this but i dont know what will i get in return.oh agony when will ALL this ever end??but t0 me all boys are the same.cant keep their eyes on one girl cant talk to only ONE girl.good boys are rare nowadays either taken or not intrested.but i know there is always someone for everyone.to me this is not the right time yet.i have more choices.and i know i am gonna find the perfect one.

2008-02-22T08:56:00.000-08:00

Met up with fara hunney for a while to pass her the photocopy of my IC and yes thanks to fara like finally i have a JOB*skips around*so i was late because the damn mrt wont move padahal the rain wasnt heavy.haha.had dinner at macdonald's and off to follow fara to shop for her stuff and her sister's.and it make me wanna shop too!LOL.so yes i already plan to get what i want.haha.but i dont know which one well you see ive been wanting an ipod touch but i dont know if i should just get an ipod classic which is much more cheaper and can put it much more songs!hahah.wah da plan dulu eh qiss.semangat sia!hoho

Anyhoo i had somekind of tiff with SOMONE just now which made me feel rather lethargic for a while budden i thought that hey why should i waste my time waiting right??i mean you dont know what you will get in the end.so i have decided to move on with my life.opeaning my heart to someone more worth it.MUCH MORE.maybe that is what i should do long long ago and not wasting my time right??your sweetness still lingers in my head but your smile?IM OVER IT.sooner or later ur gonna realise it.how thoughtful i am(not bragging),how concern i am for you.maybe just maybe we can be together one day if you put ur heart and soul into it and be thoughtful and honest towards me and urself.and quit playing around with people's feeling.im getting sick and tired of being all nice towards you.gosh what happen to me???

2008-02-21T05:56:00.000-08:00

Spend my day with baby mai today was awesome.initially we wanna go for a job hunt budden we decided to just drop the idea and just hang around bugis.of course alot of laughter moments!LOL.girls talk was great tooo.and and i badly need a job because i didnt get into higher nitec-_-
but its ok.haha.SO KAN I NEED A JOB SO IF ANYONE KNOW MANA2 ADA VACANCY DO TELL ME HORR!tralalalala.

Update
You make me smile whenever i see you.
You make me laugh whenever i talk to you.
Every now and then im thinking,
What exactly is holding you back??
Rejection??
Scared??
Insecurities??
Im trying honey im TRYING
But you are not helping me.
I kept hinting you kept denying.
BUT i know how you really feel.
Why cant you say it out??
Why oh why??

My mind is wondering around making me miserable.sometimes i dont understand boys.they can be so fucking EGO at times and thier EGO is a size of a FOOTBALL.ok out off all things.i mean seriusly why cant they just say it out what they really feel????your gonna lose me honey you really are.watch ROMANTIC PRINCESS and you know what i mean.but im sorry the TRYING doesnt work because you are making it even more worst.well honey im sorry.

2008-02-20T07:09:00.000-08:00

War of words!hahaha.tkpe qiss orangnye penyabar.at least i know my limits:)

Update about today:
All this is gonna be over SO I THOUGHT mum hafta wait until the house problem is settled which is not BUT finally someone is going to buy our house*skips around*anyhoo the hangout with pop prince today was ok.haha.the movie sucks though no country for old man.pop prince made me see it-_-.its good at first but the ending sucks to the core.worst than cloverfield.haha.should have watch jumper or juno yo.and and thanks for the treat.i didnt spend a single cent btw(sarcasm).if you dont get it means ur bodo.ok qiss stop it.so yeah hang around at vivo rooftop listening to some music.and complaining about our hair was messed up was fun!haha.no pictures yet will do soon.maybe on sunday???teehee.ok bye

2008-02-18T07:03:00.000-08:00

EVERYBODY thinks im happy by just reading at my blog.well how pathetic does that sound??i mean its just words right??ok heres the things.you think im that bad as a friend??well see how bad i can be when you said things about me that is not true.

-Wah shopping macam ape but ___________
-Wah keluar almost everyday but _________
-Wah tengok wayang boleh but _________

Me:Wah FUCK YOU!you dont know anything about me.dont just assume by reading damn it.yes im pissed off of course i am.if people said things about you that is not true.eh hello yes i did SHOP but i know my limits and its from my SAVINGS.and i dont go to the extent to spend stuff over 50bucks!like SOMEBODY.TENGOK DIRI SENDIRI DULU BILE NAK TEGO ORANG!!!!and im not RICH.oh wait you think i am kan??well again FUCK YOU.and I HAVE MY RIGHTS TO BE CLOSE TO WHOEVER I WANT.kalau tak jealous buat ape tego??did i ever say to you."why never blog about me going out with u but u blog about your BESTFRENS"i guess im more happy with her than with you.and yes i know you helped me ALOT.and now im in my darkest moments where were you??instead of comforting your making it more worst.and now ME BEING A BAD FRIEND says that however ur condition is I DONT CARE.dont fucking find me anymore DONT.if after reading this you still message/comment/chat with me at msn means you dont know how to READ.hahaha.well take care aye!Oh Btw dengar2 admitted boleh online pe kan.boleh check account pe.boleh BLOG pe.nak tipu dengan QISS.*shake head*

2008-02-16T09:05:00.000-08:00

The initial plan was to watch jumper but the ticket were sold out like literally sold out.nabey.haha.den we walk around and went to taka as i want to buy stuff as i have vouchers went to pull and bear but it cant be used-_-.macam ape jek then i went to other shops cant be used also.geram oi!ended up i bought for myself a windbreaker and a top at forever 21 which i have to lend money from mummay!confirm die bising but mmg da bising pun uh.hahaha.so yeah den i bump into nazy bebeh!i seriusly miss her lah.dekat tgh2 tangga jugak kite berpeluk-peluk!
hahaha.and and den met maiiiiiii(cinta ku)hahahaha.head to fareast cuz dinah wanna get herself a clip.den head to youth park for the gig and met emika there too.kesian dinahku pening pasal lagu terlalu hardcore untok die.haha.alah kene experience lah baby!LOL.so then head to raffles as usual camwhoring session!hahaha.syg2 kamu semua.i wish mai baby was there tooo!! confirm die pun suke!hahaha.ian camw along and bla bla bla reach home at 12.wah nari sungguh best.PLUS i get to know about something that i have to face it and and everybody is pestering me and scolding me for it.haha.babies i will try but no promises.pictures will be uploaded soon:))

2008-02-15T09:19:00.000-08:00

Im confuse,i dont know what to do,im feeling rather lethargic and all i wanna do is to HELP but its not helping and and its getting much worst.ive told maiii about somethings which made her confused even ME MYSELF CONFUSED.how ever that this happen????its all wrong all wrong.each night i prayed that all this is gonna be over but its not.i feel such a cry baby!crying every night for all this to stop and it didnt!one more burden is the sudden change of someone which got me thinking well whats up with her/him??what does she/he really want from me??and and what about me??what do i want for myself??what do i really really want??oh god i just want all this to be over.seriusly i had enough of everything.EVERYTHING.end.

2008-02-14T07:39:00.000-08:00

i love her ALOT
gf yg amat tersyg!
first time meet up aft 2 years??haha

sexy kepe!LOL

sedap maiii??
klu yg candid2 kejer nye qiss uh!LOL

I'm looking for a lover not a friend

Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way
The way I like to have my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Im Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who will stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with through the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows the way

The way I like to have my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
im Thinking you're the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?

someone who wont take for granted
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of love to share

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

2008-02-13T06:03:00.000-08:00

Living in a world of lies is hard really.but im in no position to say anything but im glad all this is over.Friends kept saying to me to stop DENYING because again and again that is what i always do until it backfires on me.butbut like i say im glad all this is OVER and done with.i cant wait for my so called date with maiiiii on saturday.haha.because of why??JUMPER!!!!!!!!!andand cant wait to se hayden's face!LOL.i say like hes my bf g2.well future mana tau kan.i know everybody is gonna*roll eyes*hahaha.wait long long eh qissy.hehe.qissy is gonna take a shot nap now.tired dong!ok bye.

Haha ok dont think to much.his com stuck!den he drag my window and tada!lol i just find it cool!so many qissy!

2008-02-12T07:46:00.000-08:00

Please make all this pain go away please

2008-02-11T08:23:00.000-08:00

Oh hunney you got the wrong person to mess around with.And if you think u are good at judging people think again cuz YOU ARE NO ONE TO JUDGE ANYONE well take care!!

I miss dancing dengan korang oi!!

2008-02-10T06:52:00.000-08:00

Current moosik:Walk Away

This is the feeling i hafta express,this feeling that i shouldent have.its heartbreaking listening to you talking about her.it really do.maybe i shouldent feel what i feel in the first place.its all wrong!but i cant control it cant i?i just cant.i cried myself to sleep thinking about it.maybe i have fallen in love??or maybe not.but for whatever reason i have to forget it.to drop the feeling to do whatever it takes for me to forget him.so close yet so far huh?this wasnt suppose to happen in the first place.for me i dont even know when the feeling developed.my friends were the one who made me realise how much i like him.how perfect can he be??PERFECT 100%.communicating with whatever resources or time we had made me like him?gosh!my friends know me very well that i WONT tell him how i really feel.im trying to refraining myself to even talk to him.giving him the cold shoulder made him really wonder i guess.how i use to text him differently from now.oh boy i really hope you do see what im going through.

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

Oh btw the friend this test is talking about is SuperDuperMaiiiiiiiiiiiii.i love youuuuuu

2008-02-09T09:06:00.000-08:00

pout maha pout!

thanks to mey!
hahaahhaha.mai mai*shake head*

thanks eh mai!

Shopping was fun fun fun!haha.i was late AGAIN.qiss qiss*shake heads* first jek mai cakap nak makan??hahahaha.die ngn makan die.so yeah we ate first at i dont know where and than shop shop shop!haha.second pit stop orchard!oh ya de first was bugis btw.and then we went into ripcurl thats where all the laughter began.mai wanted to show me this shoe which was at outside the shop well me and my gfs communicate using I and YOU.then she said loudly YOU and TERPOINTED at the group of boys which was coming up the escalator and all of them turned and look at her.hahahaha.i seriusly cant stop laughing den they went into the shop and actually trying to look for mai but she hid herself at one of the shoes stand.when we wanna go out of the shop they appeared again and we quickly went back into the shop!hahaha.paiseh giler!denden they came in and again tryin to search for us.hahaha.freaking funny!

Mai had to go off early so me and dinah walk around fareast for a while and when we are bored we decided to chill at our usual spot raffles bridge.and there is this group of boys sitting on the opposite side of us switting2 macam cibai!haha.like seriusly damn irritating and a mad girl screaming on my ear.to lage satu cibai.damn you!eh wait no fuck you!grr.and and the group of boys finally have the courage to ask for our numbers!haha.DINAH:SORRY IM ATTACHED

ME:(without even looking at him)SORRY IM NOT INTRESTED.haha.than all walk away so their intention of sitting there is to ask for our numbers which took them fucking long.haha.

When i was inside the tain there is this matrep kiddy who was trying to shuffle in a merepek manner.damn irritating!haha.like seriusly.and and ok qiss so many and and.haha,the boys sitting infront of me very the man and macho!hot ok!lol.thats what i told dinah i love manly boys rather than those fashionista who blends in with the trend.home sweet home at 12 ok im dead beat.ok bye.

2008-02-08T06:58:00.001-08:00

ah qiss pun mata mane!haha

actually not candid lah-_-

thanks eh sha!
wahwah bace buku nampak!haha

matanye mana hun!haha
eee qiss fugly!

babylove!
thanks eh faruq for the frap!

Met ferra and lia at bukit batok and yes i was late.haha.ALWAYS LATE-_-..so yes then we proceed to city hall as lia wanna shop but penin was close!damn betol.so then we had our lunch at kfc talk laugh.so yeah lia had to go off early so me and ferra just chill somewhere and when the time come she wanna meet faruq at starbucks and yes free drinks!haha.thanks eh.chill laugh andand after that met the pussy face shasha she was lost.theres 4 starbucks at marina so faham2 jelah eh.lol.after that proceed to town and guess what??orchard was dead!like seriusly dead.it was the first time de whole fareast close.nabey so not fairlah.grr.i wanna shop also canot shop.haha.nie is'syah also curse me!LOL.so yes i had lotsa fun.and shopping spree for me tomoro!ok bye.

2008-02-07T06:45:00.000-08:00

I love her more than anything else even my life.shes my heart and soul i love u mummay.

Went to lot 1 just now for the intention to go shopping which makes me boiling mad.get this ALL THE SHOPS WERE CLOSE.fucking unfair i tell you.its like hello public holiday is also a working day?which shops that i applied says oh hari raya also you must work.nabey then chinese new year you guys close the shops.its really fucking unfair lah.grr.so the intention to shop was dropped and we just head home.im still pissed!and adding to that im sick because of the weather i guess.flu and gastric pains like urgg!andand i made a utterly BIG MISTAKE yesterday which made me regret my decision like really.maiii was mad at me to for saying that to him.i dont know

im unassure about my feelings but urrg!i shouldent have said that to him.

guess i hafta drop the idea which i had in mind.my gfs words made me think maybe it was true.if its really true im ready to open my heart again for HIM.but from yesterday i dont think that is gonna happen.by right we are super close together now.maiii was really mad until she threaten me with something.i need help do i?well maiii so what you think its best for me.i dont want another story of waiting for someone which i didnt get anything out of it.im not naming anyone.i guess i was totally depressed back then which make me think of stupid stuff.im sorry baby i really am.anyhoo i just asked luke how was the party which ive missed.nabey and guess what?the picture which makes me sad also bc i didnt go.haha.oh well july baby july!

This 2 babies mean a world to me!I LOVE YOU GUYS!

Ps ITS NEVER TOO LATE

2008-02-05T22:36:00.000-08:00

Everybody is getting ready to party well me??im still not 18-_-yes party as in clubbing.im not legally 18 yet and wahwah this make qiss so bezerk.im going to miss all the fun!haha.tkpe2 my birthday!!WAIT LONG LONG-_-.anyhoo the suprise just now turn out to be not fun at all!expect for the blindfold part ONLY.nazy didnt expect her date to be HIM.she was like 'oh ok'
budden im sure she had fun walking through what we put her thru!haha.she kept shouting and asking ask to hold her thightly and nazy you look good!haha.anyhoo although i didnt manage to go zouk but meeting all the love ones was good enough for me.july baby july!heeh.the video and photos will be uploaded tomoro.and i cant wait for the photoshoot!ok bye.

Ps WHATIFISAYIMISSYOU?

2008-02-05T08:10:00.000-08:00

I want to take this oppurturnity that i have to wish this pretty bff of mine a happy 18th birthday!i know how much ur birthday mean to you i really do im trying so hard to too lose you because well 1.your the only one who understand me inside out..2.You will ALWAYS be there for me no matter what..3You think what i think easy say we think alike.we fought alot yes we do but the friendship will always be there and we will NEVER EVER lose each other.although both of us can be irritating sometimes.haha.but i know that you will always be there to help me by physically,mentally even now financially.i really do appreciate your help and bff I LOVE YOU!

2008-02-03T08:50:00.000-08:00

A VACANT AFFAIR WAS AWESOME AND TALKING TO MY ONE AND ONLY BLUR KING MAKES ME HAPPY GILER BABI!OK BYE

2008-02-02T07:52:00.000-08:00

Woke up late today as i have forgotten to set the alarm clock.pfft.so the first thing i do was to text emika and luckily she doesnt mind.haha.so do the necessary stuff and packing and meet emika at woodlands.i was not late.haha!so yeah head to harbourfront to meet juicy and guess what she was late!lol so then she text emika and said that she was rushing and she left her mat at the toilet-_-.haha cute sia u.finally when she came we head to pahlawan beach.in the tram what do you expect??LOTSA MATREP.damn irritating i tell you.why dont they just perish!haha

Upon reaching there we get the feeling that its gonna rain and it did!we did alot of shifting.haha.and then when we were sitting at i dont know what the place name is a group of china people wanna take picture with juicy!hot kepe!haha.she told then nevermind and they still stand beside her ape lage we walk off.not safe!LOL.so then finally the sun came out and so we thought it drizzle.so what we did is just sit there!haha.putting our towel above our head and we just lie down also.and when the sun finally came out again it drizzle.what a luck!but still we had lotsa fun although it is just us 3 girls.huhu.so yes sun tanning to a so called hujan panas was fun!

Wash up at around 5 and head to vivo to grab our so called early dinner.all of us were famished but emika hafta leave immediately right after eating as she got something on so left me and juicy to finish our dinner and then head to town to meet our respective clan.but eventually i met maiii at city hall instead and meet up with that rico the dirty fellow also.nabey he call me spider.haha.padahal tkda kene mengene and both of them kept disturbing melah and i laugh my ass of with rico jokes some were lame some were really funny.haha.especially hes INDON IMITATION.LOL.walau!seriusly i had lotsa fun with u girls and this rico dirty fellow.and many ask me out tomoro and promised also but im just unsure.and to that someone im here for you so dont worry ok!im dead beat and waiting for mummy to come back.ok bye.

i love juicy's shade!
my hothot darling gf!
freshen up!
that brick game he ask me to solve it.haha.or whatever u call it
he was trying to hide from me taking his pic!

i love u girls ALOT
its raining so this is what we did!
cool kepe??!!

haha.juicy muke!

yes this is how it look like
hahahah!sorry gf!

awww juicy sedih! seesee!

2008-02-01T03:42:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's hangout with mummy was not so fun at all because i was dizzy all the time as 2 taxi rides is a bumpy one.like seriusly i cant even eat nor drink and i just feel like vomiting.ok i know that sounds eww.i felt so sleepy when i was in the train but luckily i didnt headbang!haha.if not it will be so damn embaressing.mummy already headbang-ing beside me.haha.how cute!
and when i got back i slept like nobody's business!hahahahaha.woke up at 8-_- after that i cant sleep.ah bagus.well qiss kan owl.HUTHUT.nyahaha.something that well me and ok tkpe.haha.

anyhoo i guess i got a joke or whatsoever u call it.i was bathing just now and i feel something was crawling up my leg i thought it was nothing but the feeling is very tinggly you know so i brush it off and guess what it is??A HUGE COCKROACH!hahaha!like omg i tell you.totally disgusting and geli nak mampos!i was so shocked and just spray it with water until it flipped!after that i reach for the dettol whatsoever thing and spray it over and over again.haha.im actually multi tasking blogging and watching a movie at the same time Nanny's diaries.a funny/sad show.you guys should watch it.

Sentosa trip with gfs tomorro!cant wait for it.haha.sun tanning is what the girls plan to do but im not a sun tanner kinda person so yeah.i guess i will be the only one who will not be sun tanning.but still i know im gonna have lotsa fun i guess.so yes someone is trying to make me jealous by doing something so totally stupid which of course im not taken in by it.haha.bodokan kau.andand if you guys see the bulletins on myspace its like so irritatting conversation on bulletins like hello what are comments for??haha.qiss qiss *shake head*.again mummy is not at home which means im alone at home.*duh* and i have all the house to myself.andand valentine day is coming soon which means a movie date with my darling non other than MAIIIII!!!!!!!yes a girl i dont need a boy to go on a valentine date with me all the time.its a friendship day also.

which reminds me of my last valentine date with this boy that is super cute like wah and he is a skater now.we lost contact due to some reason and i find that date was a special one because he is the first boy that made me speachless.our date was fun but i was the one who kept mummed all the time until like im also irritated by myself.he is sweet.really very sweet.and now we are just normal friends.haha.enough said i wanna concentrate on watching my movie.ok bye.

2008-01-30T06:18:00.000-08:00

Hog on the phone with iysha sayang just now for a while before mummy
wanna use the phone.da shiok2!haha.tkpe sayang will talk to you soon.
anyway maiiii accompanied me to a job interview just now which is like
a freelance teacher teaching pre-school kids!haha.best gile babinye
andand its $15/hour.ok lage shiok!haha.and so of course there will be
laughter moments.haha.kate maiiii!LOL.maiiii kape!oh yes i need to do
shopping soon!like seriusly shopping.so whos kind enough to spend
ur money on me??ah yelah tu qiss dream on.so yes will be going out
with mummy again tomoro and i know she cant spend money on me
because she always do when i went out with her.heeh.i tink im gonna
hog on the phone again.nyahaha.sugar dreams darlings:))

Ps SESTH TEMAN LUCU KU!

2008-01-29T04:47:00.000-08:00

Guess what??my internet is not disconnected after all.haha.connection that made
de broadband has one light off.mcm siak jek.haha.saturday pictures will
be up and maiiiiii I LOVE U.hahahahaha.k random

Ps SOULMATE IS THE ONES THAT TRUELY KNOWS UR HEART

2008-01-25T07:42:00.000-08:00

Im feeling rather lethargic today dont know why.my mind is in a
whirl.and i think im getting sick.grr.anyhoo went out with mummy
just now to settle some bills and rented cds which mum ask me
to rent hindi movies bc well its my roots u see.haha.mcm phm and
so yet again i was addicted to it.so after watching this movie called
I SEE YOU which i think its the hindi version if JUST LIKE HEAVEN
and its really romantic and funny.so its a romantic comedy.andand
ARJUN RAMPAL is wayyy hottt.hahaha.i knowlah he is married but
who can resist such a hotbod like him.pretty flawless face.mcm wah!
andand hayden christensen also!pun mcm wah!haha.fantasy DOK.
so i hafta watch JUMPER!!whos up for it??anyhoo some pictures i
took from the net.

seesee he got this pretty face mcm wah! he with the husky eyes!

Oh Btw RIP HEATH LEDGER 1979-2008

2008-01-24T07:39:00.000-08:00

Pictures

Mai and Qiss
Qiss and Fara
edited.clevage lah oi!haha.and i was trying to put back arrowhead badge at my beg.huhu.thanks eh maiii
Qiss and Maii my saturday kaki!

finally i met fara lah sey the eurasian girl.haha rambut da colour da btol2 mcm eurasian KEPE

candid KEPE mai??hahaha

I had fun!thanks gfs!mwah and a special shoutout to EMIKA DARLING
im here for you gf!you know i will always be right??andand its really
not the end of the world you know.and i love you!ok i need a job like
badly because why??shopping lah dey!haha.im jealous of people shopping
here and there and i didnt get to:(aww so sad.haha.k mepek kerepek.
im bored lah plus tired.like pfft!and also to SASHA BANANA I MISS YOU
LIKE ALOT DO CALL ME IF U READ THIS.haha.ok da bye.

What Balqis Means

You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous.
You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things.
Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.
You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.
You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

2008-01-23T07:15:00.000-08:00

Dear dad thanks for everything.once again you are the light in my life.
please dont leave me again.you know i still need you.thanks for the
encouragement for me to school again by you saying no matter what
happens between me and your mother dont think about it and just
continue to study hard.so by then mum cant say anything and just let
me well continue schooling if i can that is.whatever happens to you
you know i will always be your daughter.and im just wondering how
you are now.cousins says that ur sick and ur getting super old.in a
way im so worried about you.but i know like me u are strong and will
pull through.i love you dad.

Anyway tomoro will be the release of O level result.like finally i can
apply for school.haha.siak jek qiss.so yes goodluck to all.especially to
my dearest gfs Sayha,Maisara and Emika.best of luck girls!must keep
me updated.huhu.anyway i better go off now as that Wawan guy wanna
call and sing to me!haha.ada jek hujan.12am exactly!haha.well sugar
dreams darlings:))

2008-01-22T09:15:00.000-08:00

"I cant explain this feeling,I think about it everyday."

2008-01-21T06:27:00.000-08:00

What did i do today??
-sleep
-eat
-do house chores(yes house chores)
and basically just rot at home.
What didnt i do today??
is to find a job.like seriusly a job.haha.i cant be possibly sit at home
doing nothing.which is what im doing right now.and and i cant wait
to meet fara on thur.haha.that eurasian girl which i miss damn much.
plus im miss school.i cant believe im saying this but i really do miss
school.something happen yesterday which make me think that
sometimes waiting too long isnt the best solution.sometimes what
you think is perfect turn out not to be.sometimes who you called
your friend will stab you in the back.sometimes when things are good
there is something that will be on the way.which make me think life is
fragile like me.boys extra percaution please.LOL.and speaking of boys some
just get on my nerve like really.and and girls too ok not all but a particular
girl.those whom is close to me will know how much i hate her.trying to
make me jealous the both of them well girl you got the wrong person im
sooo not jealous*flips hair*..anyhoo mum is not home and im soo hungry.
im waiting for someone to be online.huhu.sugar dreams darlings:))

2008-01-20T07:07:00.000-08:00

Saturday's Outing Pictures/Videos

i was on de phone and maiii kepo!haha
as mai quote shes my medicine:)

rico says i look hideous!grr

not candid ok maiii!haha
de hotstuff KEPE

rockebye baby!

dope pe rambutku!huhu
again maiii so not candid!

want a hideous face?nahh amik.
weeeewittt

typical myspacer/friendster pose.and i made her do it.

sexy KEPE
mai was lady in black on that day.haha.if only her shoes was black too

maiii's medititating style.oh spidey!

my hothot gfs got sexy legs!so boys take ur pick!ok not the one in purple.da attch oi!haha.siak jek qiss

now this is what u call candid yo maiii!haha

the 2 MAIII'S

Mai:Qiss janganlah!

2008-01-19T08:57:00.000-08:00

My day was wrecked when i came back home after a truckloads of
fun with gf.well nevermind about that.so meet up with dinah and mai at
woodlands as usual.then proceed to somerset to watch CLOVERFIELD.
maiii came on later well a few mins after the show start.haha.the movie was
awesome at first just that what make me go bezerk is the ending.seriusly no
ending at all.lamo.haha.so then accompanied mai to eat at fareast plaza which
is a like totally badluck place for me to go to bc of something that made me
almost cry.thanks to the gfs for support.anyhoo after much deliberation
we then well of course head to raffles and sit around after which mai had
to go off and left me dinah and maiii.we walk from raffles area to dont know
where just to find a place which we have no idea where isit.haha.and when we
cant find it we just gave up and relax at the bridge area.and camwhoring
session was of course there.haha.home sweet home at 12.

Never meant to cause you no pain
When I said I never wanted to see you again, Ohh
Took advantage of all that I gave, babe
So what's the news, tryen to get me to stay

Tried everything to make this thing work
Cause I found that you were god's gift to the earth, no
You could have told me we wouldn't be, yea
Together... forever

Tell me why, now that I'm leaven you're missen me
Tell me why, (oh why) when I loved you, you hated me
Tell me why, (oh why) now that I moved on you're wanting me
But baby its too late now I don't want to go back to yesterday

I was everything you wanted in a man, baby
Everyday I try to do the best that I can ohh
But you never thought that I'd be the one, yeah (ohh baby, baby)

Please, tell me why, now that I'm leaven you're missen me you're missen me
Tell me why, when I loved you, you hated me
Tell me why, now that I moved on you're wanting me, yeah, yeah
Baby but its too late now I don't want to go back to yesterday

No I don't want you back no I don't feel your pain
You gotta understand that I'm finally a man
Please don't say anymore
I'm already out the door
Aint nothing you can do
Cause baby I'm over you

It's the end, oh
Baby its getting old
Cant take the stress in mer
So baby I've gotta leave
This is my final good bye
Baby tell me why
Ohh baby

Yeah yeah, oha oha oha oha
Well baby its too late now I don't wanna go back to yesterday

Tell me why, now that I'm leaven you're missen me
Tell me why, when I loved you, you hated me
Tell me why, now that I moved on you're wanting me
But baby its and its too late now, now and no I don't wanna go back to yesterday

2008-01-18T06:00:00.000-08:00

*clear throats*

Happy birthday to you.

Happy birthday dear dinah.

Happy birthday to you!

wah finally you have turn 16 because u complained that u cant watch nc16 movies with us.haha.now finally you can huh.well all the best in everything you do and see you tomoro baby!

Aniway something happen just now that pisses me off terribly.which got me

thinking that older people can think more than us teens.but its like i think she

is dumb resort to threatening about her husband's profession to me.like seriusly

your dumb!haha.if u disrespect my mother i will do the same to you.serius lady

your clever enough right??gahh.aniways i was suppose to supprt firdaus for his

performance at laselle today and its like i always said that i will go but i always

cant make it.its CARVE THIS HEART btw.they are really good.MAYBE i will be

going on sunday at the cathay.haha.MAYBE only see how if maiii can make it.i just

cant wait to watch cloverfield tomoro!like yessa finally i can know what the monster

is.hahaha.siak jek qiss.tomoro babies tomoro!haha.anw i wanna continue watching

supernatural.cute boys yo!sugar dreams darlings:))

Now this is what you call true love.even though the guy died
he still watch over her and saved her from dying.

Ps SWEET TALKER MOTHER FUCKER,ASSHOLE,JERK AND EVERYTHING

ABOUT U MAKE ME WANNA PUKE!

2008-01-17T07:49:00.000-08:00

sexy pe kaki qiss??hahahaha
she was suppose to do her work but we ended up seeing other people myspace.haha
maiii say i look like a skater boy gf yesterday*smile widely*

I need more vocal lessons!haha.so in the future i can sing to my bf(which i dnt haf now).

sweet kepe??hahaha.ok mai im addicted to ur KEPE.MAU KEPE MAI??hahaha

kekek sia.anyhoo im bored nothing to do so i did this.

Ideal Boy,

eyes?electrifying ones!

hair?oh everybody knows i love old school hair

nose?just not penyek!hahaha

style?not fashion core please and not matrep especially

attitude?down to earth,knows how to please girls

boys who can...

SING or DANCE.thats hot!(paris's hilton tone)

sweet talk can go fcuk themselves

grab my attention by staring at me first then slowly approach me:)

boys who cant...

impress me enough they are not good

play soccer are hot!

so thats just about it??hahaha.lame sia qiss.

well what to do this is what i do when im bored!

sugar dreams darlings:))

PS TO SEE MAIII'S HILARIOUS FUNNY VIDEO CLICK
http://iaintyourgameboyyy.blogspot.com/

2008-01-16T08:14:00.000-08:00

Can A Boy Keep His Eyes On One Girl??

Ps Your Lyings Had Made Me Hate You Even More Idiot

2008-01-15T07:23:00.000-08:00

Guess what??mummy is not talking to me just because i didnt help
her find the letter that she want-_-.haha.how cute can that be.yes i
understand old people so that is why i didnt take it to heart.wahseh.
qiss speaking.she went out to somewhere i dont know where with aunt
maureen.and i hope she come back soon as i have news to tell her.hoho.
what news??canot telll.haha.k lame.anyhoo someone told me something
that pisses me off instanly even though no more connection.like how eww
can he be??those words he told me are now becoming lies and ive seen
his trueself.seriusly i dont think this issues is going to bother me anymore
but now??its bothering me like hell because i hate the fact that someone
lied to me again and again.and i feel so stupid to believe him again and again
lucky enough for me i sort it through so NO MORE GAMES.uh'uh no more.
3 words.GO FUCK YOURSELF:)

2008-01-14T04:51:00.000-08:00

Yo guess what??I have finally bump into my mr hotstuff*smile widely*

2008-01-12T09:43:00.000-08:00

i just realise how cool my hair colour is.hahaha
ah yelah meditate tangan mcm spiderman.hahaha

someone made me do this

Going out with girlfrens and having so much of laughter moments

is all i could ask for and supermaii is becoming like my saturday kaki

haha.the other saturday kakis are always busy werking-_-.huhu.and

thanks to dilla's prettyboy issyah i didnt spend well so we tout a

boring time with mai which is not.haha.how i wish dilla was there as

i miss her truckloads!and also thanks to maiii dinah and emika for

the fun times too.and ohh im so happy to bump into fara lah seh!we

miss each other ALOT and i mean really ALOT!haha.so yeah.let the

pictures to the talking.im dead beat and i need to get some sleep.well

sugar dreams darlings